Dig up my grave and let the sunshine in for I'm just a lost soul.
Dig up my grave and let the sunshine in for I'm just a lost soul.
"College comes complete with a soundtrack that sticks with you forever." - Unknown
Life is a continuous Orgasm.
During the sitting, when the eyes closed the body relaxed and seemed to turn to warm liquid with all vestiges of the worries and anxiety of earlier oozing away and falling into a deep state of peace. After some while it felt as if I was looking into the abyss of nothingness. I felt the surrender and the possibility of dying was a natural next step. Give all of it up and drown in the Oneness of God. I knew that was all I had ever wanted. It was at that stage that all the build-up of the mindbody package that I knew to be "me/myself/I" seemed to slip off and was moved to the side, sort of floating to the left. Then the eyes opened and it was as if nothing had changed, yet with the feeling that everything had transformed irreversibly. Utterly unable to place what had actually happened, and with no desire to place it.
In the Oneness / Awakened state the insights and experience of all arising in and as the Divine, and the Divine being everywhere and everything (beyond consciousness, the Self, and the mindbody package) has been obvious. This has been consistently tested by life and the obviousness, and the freedom which this brings, fluctuated accordingly.
Despite the freedom of the Oneness state I was aware that the mind was still going, I was still buying into it and really when I felt into it I was still suffering in a way that I thought would have finished many years before. There felt to be lots of changes but essentially I was still the same mess that I had always been, albeit with a more mature stance and view of things.
A true insight occurs in a moment, a split second, and it brings a subtle shift in your perspective. The 'experience' which surrounds the insight is generally entirely superfluous and is merely the Self or mindbody package attempting to own and understand the insight.
It's important to learn to laugh at ourselves. Don't take life too seriously.
A true insight occurs in a moment, a split second, and it brings a subtle shift in your perspective. The 'experience' which surrounds the insight is generally entirely superfluous and is merely the Self or mindbody package attempting to own and understand the insight.
The truth sets you free. It's a very liberating thing, when you say this is who I am warts and all and then you can just get on with life. It's amazing.
Science may have found a cure for most evils; but it has found no remedy for the worst of them all - the apathy of human beings.
