The Search for the Feminine in my Bones
by Jewel Mathieson
I collected them all, found every bone
except I couldn't find my hand, my hand
my mother had it
her calloused hard hitting hands have held me
gripped my spirit
she seized my hand at six
stripped it of innocense and grace
she severed my hand at seven
I found it again in a dry riverbed pointing North
this hand that has the most number of bones
fragments of bones, joints and articulation
I can't open it
I have my hand now
I can pray
I can pray again
I turn to the Goddess, pray for forgiveness
She says, "there is no forgiveness because there are no sins"
She places God on the tips of my fingers
on the tips of my toes
and tells me that everyone has to learn how to pray
in their own way
in their own way with everything, everywhere
I collected them all, found every splintered bone
every piece of myself
now I dance flinging by bones to the floor
like the I Ching
like the I Ching each time I hit the floor
I'm different
Quotes about Goddess
It's daylight, the sky is cloudy, and human beings believe that beyond the clouds lives an all-powerful God, guiding the fate of men. Meanwhile, look at your son, look at your feet, listen to the sounds around you: down here is the Mother, so much closer, bringing joy to children and energy to those who walk over her body. Why do people prefer to believe in something far away and forget what is there before their eyes, a true manifestation of the miracle?
I vow to interpret every experience as a direct healing of the Goddess with my soul.
In that moment, there was no place for doubt. I was sitting with the supreme being. I had always sat beside her. She was inside of me.
Listen to the words of the Great Goddess, who throughout time has been known by many names.
Assemble in a sacred place of your own making when the Moon is full,
and any other time you have need of My aid.
Know that My love will make you free, for nobody can prevent your worship of Me in your mind and your heart.
Listen well when you worship, and I will teach you the deep mysteries, ancient and powerful.
I require no sacrifices or pain,
for I am the Mother of all things, the Creatress who made you out of My love,
and the One who endures through all time.
I am the beauty of the Earth, the green of growing things.
I am the white Moon whose light is full among the stars and soft upon the Earth.
From Me all things are born, to Me all things, in their seasons return.
Let My worship be in your hearts, for all acts of love and pleasure are My rituals.
You see Me in the love of man and woman, the love of parent and child,
the love of humans to all My creations.
When you create with your hands, I am there.
I blow the breath of life into the seeds you plant, whether of plant of child.
I stand beside you always, whispering soft words of wisdom and guidance.
You need only to listen.All seekers of the Mysteries must come to Me,
for I am the True Source, the Keeper of the Cauldron.
All who seek to know Me, know this...
All your seeking and yearning will be in vain unless you understand the Mystery that if what you seek is not found within, you will never find it without.
For behold, I have been with you from the beginning, and I will gather you to my breast at the end.
Blessed Be.
Butterflies represent transformation. They evolve from a caterpillar into a beautiful, wondrous being - much like a woman finding her inner goddess; her personal power.
Tell them that I am God, that we are all God, and that this can be experienced in silence. It's just a body that leaves you. The Goddess is with you always.
Magical Prayer
From beneath me arises the energy of the Earth, my home and my foundation.
From above me pours down the light of the Sun and the enchanting Moon.
To my right hand flows the strength to control and direct, the power of magic.
To my left hand comes the skill to divine and to heal, the source of blessing.
Christianity is merely a system for turning priestesses into handmaidens, queens into concubines and goddesses into muses.
Who can guess into what it will turn us nymphs?
One day Mal-2 asked the messenger spirit Saint Gulik to approach the
Goddess and request Her presence for some desperate advice. Shortly
afterwards the radio came on by itself, and an ethereal female Voice said
YES?
"O! Eris! Blessed Mother of Man! Queen of Chaos! Daughter of
Discord! Concubine of Confusion! O! Exquisite Lady, I beseech You to lift
a heavy burden from my heart!"
WHAT BOTHERS YOU, MAL? YOU DON’T SOUND WELL.
"I am filled with fear and tormented with terrible visions of pain.
Everywhere people are hurting one another, the planet is rampant with
injustices, whole societies plunder groups of their own people, mothers
imprison sons, children perish while brothers war. O, woe."
WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH THAT, IF IT IS WHAT YOU WANT
TO DO?
"But nobody wants it! Everybody hates it!"
OH. WELL, THEN STOP.
At which moment She turned Herself into an aspirin commercial and
left the Polyfather stranded alone with his species.
"Gain strength. Suck up energy. Make a point to appreciate the fragrance of the flowers and the beauty of the sunset. It's like armor and then you're armed with an ability to be detached. One is meant to forgive, to forgive and be compassionate." The meditation tools Kuan Yin offers can be utilized while in the garden or when just daydreaming.
"Just let the mind go and look at a flower," instructs Kuan Yin. "Clear your mind."
"I'm looking at the flower and watching how Kuan Yin relates to it," comments trance channel Lena Lees. "I'm seeing how the act of relating to a flower appears to be so simple. Yet, it takes a tremendous amount of courage to make such a "simple" act important. I understand now how "busyness" can be a real distraction, how it can create "made up" realities. Being present means an absence of past and future. I'm seeing how bringing the mind into the present is the link to eternity and that true meditation is the acceptance of no past or future. I'm understanding how these are amazingly brave concepts, that there are only moments upon moments to be lived."
"Kuan Yin is showing me something-a tube, I think. I don't fully understand this diagram. It is as if one end is the past, the other the future. The middle of the tube, the present, is our way, our vehicle for changing reality. You slip into the universe, while living in this dream, this present. Your escape hatch is right here. It is like meditating upon a beautiful place. The more one dwells on the vision of the beautiful place, the more real it becomes."
"The only way to really utilize your human experience is to practice some kind of meditation or visualization," states Kuan Yin. " It does work. People really need it. It's the only way to get through the difficult times. This kind of practice puts one in the "Kuan Yin spirit". You're the watcher. Instead of judging, you just see. Whether meditating upon my form or bringing light into the chakras, all these techniques will help in one's life."
"It would be best if you could practice being in this moment and then in the next moment and so on. Try to be here, right now. Focus upon a leaf fluttering, light reflected on the waves. Things are more beautiful, afterwards. Make it your own experience. Things will taste, feel better. Colors will be brighter and you'll feel more alive."
"A powerful meditation is when contemplating the oneness of everything is to find something's unique qualities. For example, observing an island's wholeness and then focusing upon the uniqueness of a single stone. Westerners are dealing with this dichotomy on a grand scale. However, Kuan Yin wants me to emphasize that this meditation is simple but powerful. It's like physical exercise. One can practice it just once a day or as often as one likes. Other examples to meditate upon (other than an individual stone on the island beach) are faces in a crowd or a leaf on a tree. Each person (in the crowd) is unique and yet (at that very moment) part of the whole. The same is true for leaves on the trees. Practicing this deceptively easy meditation helps each of us to see reality."
Pretend you're a goddess.
May you find your faith
I want to be serious, but it's hard. I'm like the little kid who plays outside all day and has all the fun in the world, but only because he knows his mother is at home waiting for him. That's what it's like to be still inside. Mother is at home. Everything will eventually work out. Everything is inevitable. She is ALWAYS at home. My thoughts do not support my inner silence; it is just there. It doesn't even go away when I sleep. I doubt it will when I die.

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