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Raw Faith (2010)

Only available in Canada, United States

An intimate and revealing documentary that follows two years in the private life of Marilyn Sewell, an outspoken and socially progressive Unitarian minister who has re-energized her Portland community. While serving a community that relies on her for wisdom and advice, Marilyn struggles quietly with decisions about her own future.

As she seeks to reconcile the commitments of her profession with a longing for intimacy and love, childhood memories of mental illness and alcoholism come back to the surface and must be dealt with before she can move forward.

She shares her journey with remarkable candor, humor and increasing wisdom, ultimately leading her to an unexpected revelation of faith and love in all of its guises.

Marilyn Sewell
Peter Wiedensmith

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sechandler6, posted on January 9, 2016

I like Marilyn is and was a minister of my faith. I like Marilyn was a divorced woman with children. Looking and asking my God to use me. And he did.. Not always in the ways that I thought to be used. And as I watched Raw Faith I saw so many reflections of my life except to find a new love and remarry. I am now a senior citizen getting toward the end of my life but it has been a great life and I would not change a thing. Thank you Marilyn for sharing your life with us. Amen

And to all of you who have commented before me. Keep your faith and allow your God to strengthn and keep you strong. Blessings to you all

judiecollins2012, posted on October 14, 2015

Marilyn Sewell's willingness to share her feelings of doubt, inadequacies, yearnings........... sharing her true humanness........ was a great gift for me. She was successful in her ministry yet still held those questions inside....... that gave me permission to know that I am not alone in those kind of mental meanderings. This was really very healing for me. Many, many thanks for such bravery in sharing yourself to us all.

JMSMITH1, posted on October 12, 2015

I was completely captivated by Marilyn Sewell's story and her willingness to share so many intimate details of her life. What a remarkable woman! The filmmaker did an excellent job telling her story in a way that everyone will easily relate to. A true slice of life and what it means to be human.

PattyCa103, posted on October 10, 2015

This is the 2nd time that I have watched this story in the last few years. I enjoyed it so very much. It is a beautiful inspiring story which speaks to me on so many levels. I am grateful to have seen it.

SuzannaB@Gaia, posted on October 12, 2015

Thank you for your comments on the film! We're very happy it has inspired you.


ELH127, posted on March 5, 2015

Marilyn's story is a blessing...
and a reminder...we all have a story which is beautiful.
Raw Faith...Live your best story.

JIIVANIID, posted on August 10, 2014

So very encouraging. "My life is my message." Thank you. Love you.

katiewalkerca, posted on August 6, 2014

Thanks for the excellent film.

DianaT0, posted on April 19, 2014

What a moving and honest film. Thank you, Marilyn, for allowing your vulnerabilities to come forth. What a blessing for women! Thanks once again.

ElaineM7, posted on April 5, 2014

At Marilyn's general age, I think, is has been no accident, to come upon this video. So many correlations. I too have not ever loved nor been loved. It gives me hope and courage at a dark time in my life, to continue and not give up. I never had work that I love either, I have tried to find that in the last few years. It is "Raw Faith'"

tuscanlight, posted on April 5, 2014

I live in Italy and am unable to watch approximately half the movies on Gaiam TV. I find this very frustrating. Nearly everything shows "ONLY AVAILABLE IN THE STATES AND CANADA". Basically am fed up, because one misses out on all the best stuff. Feeling discouraged, and cannot understand why these rigid distribution laws are in place, and why movie makers don't want their movies to get out world wide. Beats me!!

brandiglass333, posted on March 20, 2014

I cried with and for you, Marilynn. I identified with you in so many ways and yet, you taught me so much more than what I came with when I sat down to watch your story. You, are an inspiration, a reflection and a teacher of learning. I'm 42, but I can say with great excitement - "I want to love just like you when I grow up!". I want to serve in the meaningful way that you have been able to touch so many in such obviously deep and profound ways. Your candor and your courage to live life and to love wide open are qualities that are coveted by many....myself included. You are a lover of life, of love, of people, learning and service and I want to love just like you when I grow up! ;-) Thank you for sharing you story - it is held precious and dear.
Brandi Eckert

T Rose, posted on March 17, 2014

This film touched me deeply. I can relate to Marilynn's history and much of how she processes, integrates and heals her wounds. She may be retired but her ministry lives on through her autobiographical documentary. I can feel her love, timeless and deep. Raw Faith offers universal insights that are earthy and real soul food that will nourish me a long time.

theresasp, posted on March 17, 2014

I totally related to her story -- except I wasn't as focused in my life -- so I am without career and some options at this time. So, following your heart is easier or scarier depending on how you look at it ;) I have absolutely NOTHING to lose. I went through a tough childhood a little neglected white girl in the ghetto of Flint Mich. during the racial upheaval of the 1960s. I also been to different biblical training courses and studied religion on my own. I just didn't seem to fit into the religious establishments protocol. I tried corporate jobs and they did not meet my longing for meaning. I have been web designing and recently painting --- I too have a desire to write and have written poems and children stories ... I also started a web site hopefully to connect with other like minded people who also want to write and share their heart ... sell and publicize their work ... I hope I can get some support from somewhere. writecms.com -- I hope I have a happy ending ... I am really working on it. I am going to therapy -- finally! Thanks to Obamacare:)

irie, posted on March 16, 2014

Most poignant words to me were I'm available what's next? I can relate to that but instead of love for me it's career wise.

judiecollins2012, posted on October 14, 2015

I so agree with you - I woke up this morning and repeated those words. WONDERFUL morning mantra!!!!

SusanM89, posted on March 16, 2014

This is the first video I have watched since joining about a month ago. It was so beautifully made. And boy could I Relate to all of her story. I plan to watch this a few more times at the very least, it was a story I was meant to hear and I loved it. Thank YOU

joxyjules, posted on March 16, 2014

I almost didn't select this film, but an inner voice prompted me. I was riveted, I identified so closely, I cried, I felt compassion, hope, and most of all renewed faith in this journey we are all sharing. A great film and a superb message.

cathybyhand, posted on March 16, 2014

Marilyn is a beautiful reminder of when we stay in the present and make ourselves "available", we each can be called - where on each our new and particular uncharted paths, we will discover, and REdiscover what it means to be of the heart, to be Human, and to be the container of love, utilizing the power of "Creator" (whatever that means). :0)

Treesa, posted on March 15, 2014

What an absolutely beautiful story. I cried tears of sorrow for her losses and then cried tears of joy for her happiness! Thank you Marilyn for making such a touching, beautiful film and thank you Gaiam for bringing it to us. I would have loved to have attended her sermons! I didn't want the film to end, I wanted to be with Marilyn and George! I am definitely putting this in my playlist to share with others!

MiriamGaiamTV, posted on March 14, 2014

Such courage....to leave the comfort of known spaces and routines to follow her heart and finally find love....that other kind of love that was missing in her life. Great message.....Thanks Gaiam from bringing this wonderful film.

tompkins.bj, posted on March 14, 2014

A beautiful story, with many wonderful lessons. Thank you Marilyn for being so open and for sharing your life so that others may learn.

Love and Blessings Brenda

beautifullady568, posted on March 14, 2014

I enjoyed this story. I felt like playing I was part in story I am lonely. But I know I have to wait on what God have in store for me. I have learned from watching story that I can enjoy my life, When is time God will place a great man in my life,

JOANNW1, posted on March 14, 2014

Thank you so much for an amazing documentary. I would so much love to meet marilyn and be able to share my story with her. It took great courage for her to stand before the camera with all her gifts and foibles, her love and her heartache, and I'm so glad her sons, her brother and her sister were willing to be part of the story.
Thank you,

esantheone, posted on March 14, 2014

So...Beautiful...She so moved me...I just cried the whole time...

wakeuplaughing, posted on March 14, 2014

Bravo! I am so utterly grateful to Marilyn Sewell for having the courage to out herself on film, to be allowed the privilege to hear her story. Every word of vulnerability and honest need spoken was affirmation and permission to the place I find myself in, very similar in nature to herself. It is the human story, so many of us realizing it is okay to receive, to have our own needs met after a lifetime of giving out. I find myself at a crossroads thinking many of the same things, beginning to say to very same people who have come to me for help, "I'm not okay, I need help". Severe adrenal exhaustion after continuous care giving of a mother with Alzheimer's, the after death mop up; a dozen and a half deaths in a short time, and so much more that can't even be talked about here; all while thinking it is mine to be eternally single as I go into my senior years. I am a writer wondering when my life gets to start. I cried and laughed and identified with so much of Marilyn's very human story. We need story, and I am grateful she shared hers.

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